Monday, April 11, 2011

*~* My Dearest Baby Dean*~*

Dear Baby Dean,
   I am so incredibly thrilled to have you growing inside of me! Sorry mommy seems a little crazy, but this is still so surreal to me! By crazy, I mean testing like crazy; I have currently taken 6 at home and one at the doctor. Every time I see the words "pregnant" I think of you. I imagine my life with you. I have many weeks before I know if you are James or Jessica, but either way I am going to love you to the best of my abilities. I love you now, and you have many others waiting on you as well! You have so many people who want to love and spoil you. Daddy is so happy too! He holds you and kisses you already. He talks about the things we are going to do for you.
Dr. said that I shouldnt expect you to come into my life any time soon. But, after only 2 weeks of being treated for mommy's medical issues, you came to us! You are truely our blessing from God. I promise to raise you in His glory and teach you the #hope that many ladies help mommy learn. Keep growing. Be healthy. I dont care how sick you make me, I just want you in my arms. Stay in as long as possible, but not past your due date please :))


Mommy <3

Tuesday, April 5, 2011


That's right!!! We are PREGNANT!! Those words sound like I should be having my mouth washed out with soap!! But, it was confirmed today!! It is extremely early, but definitely true!!!! I am 4 weeks and 2 days!! Can you believe that there is a baby growing inside of me and I am IN LOVE!!! Completely and totally.

So, what made me take a test??? PURE BOREDOM! Not a lie! I had a test lying around and was expecting a negative..... But to my surprise, this comes up

Its the faintest of lines, and almost NOT believable! SOOO I called my mom and told her.... then I called the oh so FABULOUS BFF Courtney who, at 11 pm leaves her family to go to walmart. We had both posted this pic. Most people were in the boat with Court and it was positive; there were some negative people. Then I took a $ store test, which Court SWEARS she saw a faint line..... I got really discouraged and she makes me take a digital one..... AND...... Drum Roll please!!

Yep it says PREGNANT!!! Oh and I about hit the floor!!!! Well, I thought it was a fluke. Two positives?? So I tested in the morning with FMU and guess what??? STILL PREGNANT!!! I made a dr appt and they didnt do much but give me a test. Nurse said line was still faint on her test, but they trust ClearBlue :) I still dont know if I believe it yet FULLY, but I plan to take another test VERY soon :)))))

I hope this gives you all hope :)

<3 Tiff<3